Jesus healed Donovan mentally and physically
Depression and suicidal thoughts no longer overshadow his life.
I told Him, “I need you. I don’t know much about you, but I need you.”.
Before I met Jesus, I chased everything that I thought would give me satisfaction. I was obsessed with popularity, social media, and what others thought about me. What no one knew was that I struggled with depression and suicidal thoughts.
A friend invited me to Fuse, but I had no idea what it was. I figured I would check it out because I just wanted to hang out with my friend. Dan Lian was preaching about surrendering the garbage over to the Lord in order to heal and restore us. In my heart, I knew the Lord was speaking to me. I told Him, “I need you. I don’t know much about you, but I need you.”
After I met Jesus, things got really hard for me. My parents were talking about getting a divorce for the second time. I felt like I slammed into a wall. I didn’t want to live anymore. The suicidal thoughts came flooding back, and I felt like I had no one. I decided to open the Bible App, looking for anything to give me hope. I read in Psalms that God heals the brokenhearted and binds their wounds. I told God, “Whatever you have, I want it.” The next day, I bought a physical copy of the Bible, and the Lord began to radically transform me.
The Lord started me on this journey, teaching me how to be a son. He began to show me the calling He has placed on my life. I had always dreamed of being a doctor and being successful, but the Lord had other plans. He told me that I was going to stay in Columbia because He was calling me into full-time ministry. The Lord allowed me to hit rock bottom in order to see how much I need Him and also be able to love and lead others through similar situations.
I knew the Lord was good, but there was a time I really believed He would not continue to heal me. I would have these hives that would break out all over. I went to doctors, but no one could tell me why I was getting them or what they even were. They would cause me so much pain and created insecurities in my appearance. I got tired of asking for healing, so I gave up.
This summer, I got the opportunity to go to Israel with Fuse and Rally. One night, we were praying, and the Lord spoke to me and said it was time to ask for healing. For the first time, I asked for someone to pray over me. [Fuse Director Kaleb White] and a girl named Roxy prayed for me. Not only had God healed my mental health, that night God also healed me physically. Something I struggled with every day had become non-existent. I am not a physical-touch person, but the Lord has been teaching me that it's OK — that there is a power of laying on of hands. If I am going into ministry, I need to be more comfortable with it. The Lord has been growing me so much in this season, preparing me for my calling.